As the Alarm blares and I stare
Praise Be! I'm alive and well...kind of
Close My Eyes because I hit the snooze button... again
Not Today
My eyes are still puffy, brain still runnin'
thinking of what could have been
Heart broken, time, they say, it will mend
Not Today though
Put a smile on my face that doesn't quite reach my eyes
Play Tag, Catch and Peek A Boo! memorized
Baby Shark and Let It Go-Now, why can't I?
Not Today though I
I listen to the drama, he said, she said
Teacher didn't grade it, Yes, mom, the directions I read
Homework done, chores complete, can I go now?
Not Today though I now
See, Honey, that's all it needed, it's fixed-(Am I?)
Oh dinner was delicious, not that I'm surprised
Put the kids to bed, lay next to me
It's only you I want to see
Not Today though I now see
It'll be someday
As I lie awake, praying to God my soul he'll take
I love them though, I love me too
But today I feel like I am through
Keep holding on, One more step
One more laugh, One more breath
Maybe tomorrow will be the day
One more chance
It'll be Some Day
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